Monday, September 27, 2004

Likes… Dislikes…

Just like to share...

Likes… Beliefs… Wants… Dreams…

One of my childhood dreams is to be the first lady to reach the peak of Mt. Everest… then I was disillusioned one day to learn that I cannot be the first lady to do that… but still I my fascination with mountains did not end.

I also dreamed of discovering the 10th planet but then, it was frustrating to know that it was already discovered… but my interest in heavenly bodies did not waver.

I’ve always wanted to be a scientist and my goal is to create a certain something that can make garbage and wastes disappear without making the environment suffer, unfortunately, when I was in highschool I learned that I have to have money to do that… so I just contend myself in doing my part in maintaining cleanliness.

My dream profession then was to be a teacher… a religion teacher, but as I grow older I found myself in conflicting concepts of religion… although, I decided not to pursue the dream I still made sure that I would not abandon the faith. I will be that teacher to my nieces, nephews, my kids and even to those lost souls that may walk my way.

Photography… it is one thing that I LOVE to do… I wish to pursue this hobby of mine… when? Not sure yet, when I have enough funds to support the expenses.

I LOVE DRAWING… arts in general… in all forms… may it be poetry, painting, sketches, dance… it’s just that I have certain moods for each one… yes, I can sketch, I can paint, I do write literary pieces.

I am scared of deep waters… but I don’t consider that as something I hate or dislike… In fact I am so amazed but the life under the sea... and I believe that it’s my great respect for their space that scares me to intrude their privacy.

I have great respect for seeing beneath the surface of anything/ anyone. I don’t believe in first impressions… I strongly believe that no matter how thin you slice the cheese it has two sides.

I LOVE kids… the innocence they posses… the honesty in all their actions and words… the pureness of their intensions… and simply how they can make your world a little brighter just by the simplest of their gestures.

I LOVE cartoons… I LOVE fairytales… I LOVE magic… (I’ll let you in a secret, I think I am a witch…)… I LOVE being in-tuned with nature… I LOVE happy endings… I LOVE playing love doctor… I LOVE the rain because after the rain I will be able to see the colors of the rainbow, without the rain the color of the sunset will not be as mesmerizing as it is. I LOVE chocolates for all the goodness and badness it brings… I am a hopeless romantic that believes that when you finally found the one it will lasts forever…

I believe that people comes in all sizes and shapes, in all colors and cuts…

I am already 25 years old and I’ve seen quite a lot to say that I can live the rest of my life without difficulty if I’d be surrounded by people who are trustworthy… loving…caring… with a very good idea of what having fun is… understanding… whom I can talk with about anything and everything, anytime, anywhere… intelligent… people who will help me see life in a positive way and who will lead me back to my Savior.

Hate… Dislikes… Angst… Fears…

I don’t like eating vegetables because I have this thinking that they are so helpless to be eaten…

I don’t like being stuck in a no-way out place or situation. It makes me feel useless and stupid.

Sometimes, I feel like my life sucks, because no matter how hard we avoid to have insensitive, reckless and selfish people in our lives we just can’t. Because, no matter how hard I try to push them away, I know these people are still the ones that makes me appreciate how good life can get…

I hate myself for being so childish in the age of 25. Nobody takes me seriously… Which makes me fear that I will be stuck being alone for the rest of my life…

Basically, I don’t hate too much… It will just make my life harder to deal with… I may hate people, situations and things but at the end of the day, I don’t have anybody, anything or anyone to blame but myself… This is my ship I am the captain… This is my life I should be accountable with everything…

… I am rebellious free spirited missy, turning 25 this coming October, what you see is what you get type of girl, but if you go an extra mile you’d know the truth in all that I’ve claimed to love and hate… or maybe even more…

I am starting to be sooooo sentimental and emotional... this is that time of the year...

1 Comments:

Blogger Reesh said...

It's good that you did get the bottom line of them all. That you have to take accountability for your own actions/decisions/life/or the lack of them. Blaming people for anything is just senseless. But blaming other people does make you feel better for some time though. Just be sure that you know where to draw the line and deal with it. You can't keep on dodging blames coz sooner or later, it will hit you right on the bull's eye.

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