Climb from a Different Perspective
We had a climb last weekend (March 12-13, 2005) at Mt. Susong-Dalaga, Talim Island, Rizal. It was supposed to be enjoyable and fun but on the contrary, I did not.
A brief backtrack.
A week before the climb (March 6, 2005), Leo, Ava, Panget and I have already been there... to recon, in preparation for the official climb. As usual, I had a hard time walking, but the later part was fun when we started to really climb. When we reached the summit, the place was breath-taking... with the 360 degrees view... "ang isa sa pinakamagandang summit na naakyat ko!". I then, started to get excited for the next weekend's climb when we get to see the sunset and sunrise. We just stayed there for an hour or even less just to eat our lunch, still I had fun.
March 6, 2005. Mt. Susong Dalaga, Talim Island, Rizal.
Then came March 12, a week after. The day of the open climb. I am so surprised that on our way to summit, the talahib along the way is gone, the trail to the summit is harder with nothing to hold on to. And it really frustrates me to see that the campsite was covered with ashes. And the long talahibs are gone. In a week's time, it's all gone. I don't have pics of the current situation of the campsite, I felt so weak and brokenhearted to take pictures of the place. I almost wanted to go home. The group just decided to camp there despite the depressing sight of it (at least for me), which is a good thing. Sunset came, and it was so beautiful.
Sunset at Mt. Susong Dalaga, Talim Island, Rizal
The guests were all cooperative, overall the itinerary was followed. The group had fun. But then why did I not enjoy?!?!?! Simple, I am the Expedition Leader (EL). I was so tensed, stressed and anxious even of the simplest detail. One of my friends said, "the problem with you is, YOU WORRY TOO MUCH". Yeah, I was worrying too much... to the point I threw up and cannot eat a single decent meal. I have other reasons too... reasons I don't wish to share to everybody (sorry guys, sekretong malupet!)
From this experience I learned that I am not a leader in a making. I am really a "flows with"... a "supporter". I have this negative habit of pleasing everybody... everybody but myself.
Right now, I am depress. Mainly due to the aftershock of the climb.
... And I feel very very bad that I have to pass up the opportunity to go to Sagada this holy week (again, dahil me masasagasaan na schedule).
A brief backtrack.
A week before the climb (March 6, 2005), Leo, Ava, Panget and I have already been there... to recon, in preparation for the official climb. As usual, I had a hard time walking, but the later part was fun when we started to really climb. When we reached the summit, the place was breath-taking... with the 360 degrees view... "ang isa sa pinakamagandang summit na naakyat ko!". I then, started to get excited for the next weekend's climb when we get to see the sunset and sunrise. We just stayed there for an hour or even less just to eat our lunch, still I had fun.
March 6, 2005. Mt. Susong Dalaga, Talim Island, Rizal.
Then came March 12, a week after. The day of the open climb. I am so surprised that on our way to summit, the talahib along the way is gone, the trail to the summit is harder with nothing to hold on to. And it really frustrates me to see that the campsite was covered with ashes. And the long talahibs are gone. In a week's time, it's all gone. I don't have pics of the current situation of the campsite, I felt so weak and brokenhearted to take pictures of the place. I almost wanted to go home. The group just decided to camp there despite the depressing sight of it (at least for me), which is a good thing. Sunset came, and it was so beautiful.
Sunset at Mt. Susong Dalaga, Talim Island, Rizal
The guests were all cooperative, overall the itinerary was followed. The group had fun. But then why did I not enjoy?!?!?! Simple, I am the Expedition Leader (EL). I was so tensed, stressed and anxious even of the simplest detail. One of my friends said, "the problem with you is, YOU WORRY TOO MUCH". Yeah, I was worrying too much... to the point I threw up and cannot eat a single decent meal. I have other reasons too... reasons I don't wish to share to everybody (sorry guys, sekretong malupet!)
From this experience I learned that I am not a leader in a making. I am really a "flows with"... a "supporter". I have this negative habit of pleasing everybody... everybody but myself.
Right now, I am depress. Mainly due to the aftershock of the climb.
... And I feel very very bad that I have to pass up the opportunity to go to Sagada this holy week (again, dahil me masasagasaan na schedule).
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